The moon disagrees, but it has no voice to say so.

Hello.

Sometimes I just don't like people. I usually don't like most people. So it's not so great when I don't like the few I do... If that makes sense. Haha.
I still like them, they just can be annoying.
I know you are better than me, would you please just not remind me of that? Just please...? Or you can, I guess if it makes you happy. I'd like if you didn't though.

My parents freaked out at me. I warned them my midterms have a few C's and maybe even a D.
"Are you doing drugs!?!"
"Yeah, that's it."
"Why do you have C's!?"
"It's only midterms it doesn't matter."
"Yes it does."
"No. It really doesn't."
"It matters A LOT!! Are you okay? You are always doing homework! How is this possible?"
"I'm not always doing homework?"
"You told me you are all the time."
"No... You just assume that when I'm in my room I'm doing homework. And now I must go do some."
"Don't leave. Explain this."
My parents are kind of annoying. But oh well. As long as they let it go.... They won't... I'll just hide in my room some more.

Hmm... What else?
I hate school. I hate people. I don't hate life though. I just hate many things about it. If I could live in the middle of no where, somewhere pretty, I think I would hate less things. Or not hate less things, just be less aware of the things I hate.

More?
Ummmm... Today I turned in all my homework. Like I usually do, but I did it all before school. And I turned in a late history thing from tuesday. So I'm caught up right now. But I won't be tomorrow. History is really bad to fall behind in...

Ha I'm done complaining about school stuff now. Probably not so interesting, eh?

I keep dreaming. About really weird things. And I don't remember them till I see something that was in the dream. I'm not a fan. Dreams are not good. They scare me. Haha. And make it so I sleep terribly.

Masks, walls, shells.
Something to hide behind.
Walls.
I keep putting them up. Thickening them.
I'm scared. I just don't know really why.
Do I think you will find my secrets?
No. I'm rather good at keeping them. No one knows. I'm a pro.
Haha.
Am I scared you will see how horrible I am?
We all are... But none of us what to be seen as horrible.
What am I afraid of?
I'm not sure... I'm really scared though.

Hmm.
I don't want to be disappointed in you anymore. You being all the people who disappoint me.
Is it selfish that I disappoint myself more then anyone else? I think so... I'm not nearly that important. That's stupid. I'm in control of myself, so anything I do wrong is my fault, so I guess it more self pitying, eh? Which is selfish. Because then you pay more attention to your insignificant stupid problems rather then ones that actually matter. (I'm talking to myself in the last sentence...)

Okay... I'm tired. Goodnight.
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