Spoken through the lips of a monster.

Hello.

I'm such a mean sister.
Hahaha
I needed to fix my brothers facebook name.
He was spelling his name incorrectly and I must say that it was making me go berserk.
So. I just to fix it.
:)
I shouldn't abuse my knowledge of his passwords... Ah, but it is so fun.

Though, I sent him an email informing him of his new password and why I had to fix it.
I think it is a perfectly reasonable thing to do.
He shall be happy that his sister cares so much about what people think of him.
I mean, he doesn't want his friends/family thinking he's so dumb he can't spell his name... Would he?
Nope.

:D


So. I feel like everything is going wrong.
Or... More like it's not getting better.
All the things that I had worked out in my head, the things I told myself would go away or get fixed.
All those problems are still laying around. And I still don't know how to fix them.
I still don't know how to make the messes go away.
For some reason I thought I could ignore them and they'd just... evaporate?
I don't know.
I thought it would get better.
I thought time would fix the issues.
Clean up the messes.
But then I walked back into those rooms, and they had the same messes.
They were still not fixed.
The waiting, waiting for time to make things better, has been just as much a waste as making the messes in the first place.

Ah. I don't know if that makes any sense.

Hmmm.
I think people say things they don't mean. Way to often.
I hate it.
Because I trust them to mean what they say.
And so often they don't.
And you'd think I'd learn.
But so many things push me into trusting people.
In my weird unspoken way.
I really do want to give people a chance.
I really do.
I want to be the person there when you need a hand.
But so often you just want someone else.
So often you just pull me down too.
And I guess I should realize that it's a risk I have to take if I want to be that way.
But sometimes I'd like a hand too.
Sometimes I'd like to see you stand on your own too.
Because I know, I know you can.
It's just all in your head.

I dunno.

Hmmm.
Goodnight.
I'm boring you all to death.
Spread the smiles, my dears.