Slow down.

Today has been good. For the most part.
Sunday I spent the day at lagoon. Haha.. With Amanda Panda. :)
Today I slept horribly but it didn't really make me tired.
Cleaned for about 2 hours. Read for a lot.
Wrote some lyrics. I think I may actually like how they're turning out... And a friend wrote a guitar line to go along. So. That's kind neat. :D maybe. haha.
And went on a lovely evening walk/run.

Phone calls are so awkward.... Ah.
They make me feel so weird.
Unless... You're Liz, and you're reading me a story. :D
Or you just want to ask something and then hang up.
But if you expect a conversation... God so weird.
Or if you happen to be Circles, then I'll gladly try to not feel so awkward.

Summer feels like it's going by so quick..
I'm scared for school..
It's gonna be hard this year.

Hmm. Today my mother expressed that she thinks I'm fat.
I really don't care what she thinks so much.
Just that when she says things like that, she tries to make it sound nice.
And it's fucking irritating.
Just be a bitch if you're going to, don't try to make it seem like we are still, or ever were, friends.
Be mean, and take the blame.
Don't hobble around trying to get some pity, because I'm the nothing near perfect daughter you're stuck with.
Don't try to seem so innocent.
Don't get them to think I'm so fucking terrible, when you're pulling the strings.
Don't make them look at me while you're right behind me moving me like a puppet.
Don't say something mean and then try to hide it with a compliment.
That's not how it fucking works.
Be nice, be mean. Don't fucking be in between.
Rhyme ^ :)
Haha.

I had a dream last night. In one of my short moments of sleep.
I don't remember much..
Terrorists attacked. We all turned against each other.
We all died.
That's about how it went.
:)

Ah.
Well... I'm going to go read now.
Sweet dreams!
Spread the smiles. :)