Try.

Waste your life.
Waste the effort.
Waste it all on selfish want.
Because you can keep yourself up,
others try and help,
if you also tried,
you could stand.
All on your own.
But you want to waste their time,
you want to waste their effort.
Justify it all you want,
but most of us won't see it the same.
So if you care,
you are damaging us.
And yes,
it is our fault,
but it is just as much your own.
Please,
all I want,
is for you to try.

Hey.

:/ I really hate when people don't try.
I understand when they just don't have hope.
I understand if they don't try because they have no more effort left to give.
But when they don't even want to be better? Or okay?
Oh it drives me crazy!
I know it's not a really good thing. But it's one of the most irritating things in the whole world.
Like when people want to cause harm on others.
I just don't understand how people can be so selfish.
Do they care that they are hurting others?
Does it hurt them?
I usually say it does.
Because it's unimaginable to be otherwise.
But time and time again I find myself wondering about some people...
Do they just not think that far?
Or what?
Explain. Someone please?

I dunno.

I'm hurting.
Along with like everyone else.
Why?
I can tell you why I'm hurting, but not why everyone else is.
Everyone is always hurting though.
I want to push all the hurt away.
Drown myself in my misery.
But I'm happy.
I tell myself that at least.
Which is a lie?
Am I happy?
Or am I hurting?
Can I be both?
I'm happy for a lot of things.
But I'm quite sad for a lot of things also.
The sad seems to be a little bit more fond of me though.
Hmmm.
I dunno.

Well goodnight.
Spread the smiles. They are really needed.