The bad guy.

I feel like the bad guy again.

I let my issues get in the way.

I'm the one with the problem.

I'm the one making mistakes.

I feel so disappointed.

I don't have the right to.

I'm not fucking good enough.

I'm not perfect.

I'm not even acceptable.

I can't do this again.

I'm insecure.

I don't like to talk about things.

I don't make any sense.

I'm insane.

I'm self-centered.

I'll never live up to your expectations.

I can't live up to my own.

I can't do this.

Leave.
Run.
Give up.

I said you would, everyone does.

I can't expect more.

I'm so god damn stupid.

I'm cold and mean.

I am the bad guy.
I'm sorry.
I told you.
I'm sorry I made an exception in my rules.

I'm sorry that I am so sensitive.
I bet it annoys you as much as it does me. Maybe even more.

I'm sorry I don't want to talk about my faults.
I'm sorry I can't lie.
I'm sorry I am this way.
I'm sorry I don't know how to change.
I'm sorry... I'm not enough.
I'm sorry I didn't tell you.
I knew I wasn't enough. I didn't warn you. I'm sorry.


I don't feel very good.
I'm sick.
I'm disappointed in myself.
And scared.
And overwhelmed.
And I just want to be good enough.
At everything. Every little thing. And I can't. And I knew that.
But since I can't do that I want to meet up to your expectations.
I should be able to do that.

Goodbye. I don't know.
Spread the smiles, eh.
ha sorry for such a lame post.
Probably shouldn't have wasted your time reading that...