Failure.

Is all I can accomplish.

Hello.

Idk.
I stayed home sick today.
I should have done all my homework I'm behind on.
I didn't. Only a little.
I wasted the day.
I am sick. But not so sick I couldn't have done all the stuff I needed to.

Oh well.

I hate regret.
I hate when my mistakes are staring me right in the face.
Every single day.
Every single god damn day.
I'm still trying to forgive myself.
Why the fuck should I though?
So I can feel better about myself?
I feel good enough about myself.
I don't need to feel any better about myself.

Ha I realized I never really talk about anything outside of my little world.
Or only about things that aren't exactly real? Like abstract ideas? Or something. I dunno. Haha I don't make sense.

The past effects us all.
It's changed me from
happy
life-loving
people-loving
adventurous
outgoing

Into,
pessimistic
life-hating
suicidal
self-hating
people-hating
cautious
anti-social

and then again into a,
cautious
shy
curious
self-critical
semi-adventurous
impulsive
doubtful
person.
And more. haha

I don't know why.
Somethings stay, some change. Some leave, and then come back.
Idk.

This is a terrible post... haha sorry. for wasting your time and such.... :D

I'm an idiot.
I just need to be heartless.
I am heartless.
Heartless and selfish.
I am.
Keep telling me that.

I have been speaking with Circles more lately.
Our communication had nearly ended.
I don't feel myself falling for him though.
I would if I could go back in time.
But now I have given up hope. And willingness to try.
It may seem like I'm not over him.
I am. I'm over him.
I'm not over my stupidity. And the possible happiness I push away.
But I am over him.
:)

So... I'm going to stop my rambling... Cuz I'm sure it's boring you to death.

SPREAD THE SMILES.

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3 is my favorite number.
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As is 7.

Goodbye.
Bye.
Adios.
Hej-da.
Tschus.
Hasta luego.
Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.