One, two, skip a few, ninety-nine, 100.

Ah so... Camping wasn't exactly camping. haha
We camped in the backyard. :)
And, this is my hundredth post! So, I'll share with you, 100 things about me. If I can think of that many... :)
Prepare for a boring post!

1. I have been to 14 countries (USA, Sweden, Denmark, Mexico, Costa Rica, Italy, Cambodia, Japan, China (Hong Kong only), Thailand, Vietnam, Netherlands, Belgium, and Jamaica.)
2. And soon I'll also have visited Hungry, making it 15 countries I've been to.
3. But I have only been to 12 states, 5 of which I was only driving through.
4. I have horrible eating habits.
5. I had a tumor when I was 2.
6. I also had lead poisoning when I was 3.
7. I have lived in Utah my whole life.
8. Though I've lived in 6 different houses.
9. I worry about my friends way more than necessary.
10. I have terrible spelling.
11. I'm very easily stressed.
12. Horses are scary.
13. This is already getting difficult... I like cheese?
14. I like people who are greatly damaged.
15. Talking about myself, especially in person, is absolutely horrifying.
16. I want to be there for everyone, I want to help them out, even if I can't take it.
17. I become easily dependent on people, but rarely do they know just how much I think I need them.
18. I break easy, and heal slowly.
19. I still miss him, a lot.
20. And it makes me feel incredibly stupid and pathetic.
21. I think violence is completely unnecessary.
22. Most people seem to have forgotten all the rules of kindergarten, or they just don't think they apply to the real world.
23. I'm simple and childish, but those I let in don't see how simple I really am.
24. People have told me I'm weird my whole life.
25. I find people incredibly interesting, you may be the most boring person I've ever met, but I will still find you very interesting.

26. I like to find patterns. In people, math, science, countries, whatever.
27. I miss being a little kid.
28. I'm scared of what will come in the future, greatly.
29. Telling people my secrets isn't a very hard thing to do.
30. Letting them know how much I care is though.
31. I expect far to much from people, and even though I know that, I keep on expecting it.
32. I set myself up to fall.
33. I hate losing.
34. If I don't think I can succeed I won't try and I will make it apparent that I'm not trying.
35. I hate being confronted. Like. A lot.
36. Also I hate confronting people, even more.
37. Though I want people, some people, to pull me apart and dig deeper, figure me out, I'm not willing to start it.
38. And I will try to make it hell for them.
39. I think humanity is corrupt and it will never be fixed.
40. I wish I had grown up in the 70's or 60's, or even back in like the 1600's.
41. When I'm mad, sad, whatever with someone, I will try to make it unnoticed.
42. I don't want people to see me unless I'm happy or at least okay.
43. I can't ever really give up on someone.
44. Drugs should just disappear.
45. I eat when I'm bored, never when I'm hungry.
46. I hate humans, and that is a big problem, seeing that I am one.
47. I focus on the bad. Do you see one good thing in this list?
48. Dr. Pepper is my favorite.
49. I think I'm an incredibly boring person.
50. I don't like bottled water, it tastes funny.

51. I don't like taking medicine.
52. Talking on the phone is weird.
53. I'd much rather be with the person or text them.
54. Close relationships with people don't ever last longer than 2 years.
55. Only once has one lasted longer, and only by a couple of months.
56. I listen to an odd array of music.
57. Right now, my favorite band is Coldplay.
58. I absolutely love to sing. It almost always can brighten my mood.
59. I have a great deficiency in confidence.
60. I have always wanted to be tall. Like 5 ' 10" ish.
61. But I am only about 5' 6".
62. I hate decisions.
63. I like my father more than my mother.
64. When I was younger, I wanted my parents to divorce.
65. My mother wishes I were more like her.
66. I want to be NOTHING like her.
67. My reason for living, is for others. I just want to help out.
68. I dislike how the world revolves around such materialistic things.
69. 3 is my favorite number.
70. And I'm oddly like ocd about it.
71. I also like the number 7. But not as much.
71. I suck at explaining and describing.
72. I hate when I see how I've changed.
73. I hate when I see change in other people too.
74. I look really silly with my hair up. Or with sunglasses.
75. I dislike when other people prepare my food and put it on a plate.

76. This is because I am very picky. And rather than shove things to the side and waste them, and rather just take what I want from the pot or whatever.
77. I like to read the nutrition facts on the back of foods and drinks.
78. But only after it's gone.
79. I do a lot of stupid things. Most of which I am aware that they are stupid before I even do them. Some I even continue to do.
80. There are a couple of things I'd like to be when I grow up, but I don't think I could do any of them well.
81. This world turns people into zombies. I miss people.
82. By zombies, I mean fucking stupid, irritating, self-righteous, horrible, cunning, drug doing, idiotic, assholes.
83. Boats scare me. Well. Water scares me. So boats are fine on land.
84. I want to love someone, and have them love me back.
85. But I'm only 15 and so it's stupid and I refuse to pretend.
86. Sex is not sacred. It's quite meaningless actually.
87. If I were ever to go to a therapist, I would only do it to see what they thought of me, and see if we have come to the same conclusion.
88. I try to hide from myself.
89. I am my own worst enemy.
90. Suicide is an option, it's not out of he question.
91. But I could never do that to all the people I know, unless they all died or proved that they didn't need me.
92. But that also doesn't mean I'm horribly sad and whatnot. It just means that I don't really think death is such a horrible place to be.
93. Sweden is my favorite place. It is so beautiful.
94. I've not been able to sleep normally in quite a few years.
95. And I have never had very good dreams.
96. I think my life is good.
97. I'm just pathetic and can't seem to look past all my faults and bad things.
98. I like making lists and planing. Even though I don't use them. But if I don't actually have them written down somewhere, I forget.
99. I like the color black. And purple.
100. I hate how people throw around the words 'I love you.'

Ah. That was difficult.
Haha...
Sorry for wasting your time.
See, I told you. I'm quite ordinary. Just like everyone else.

Goodnight.
Spread the smiles!