I Just Don't Know.

Alright... So I realize I've been gone for a bit.
I dunno.
I've been sick.
And just sad I suppose.
So first off I'll tell you about what I've been up to for the past 10 days or so.
So last thursday I was with Lukas and Amanda. We just hung out.
Friday, was spirit bowl. Not super fun. But after I hung with Sierra.
Saturday I started feeling more sick, and for a in the morning I felt like I was gonna pass out. But then I started feeling a little better and Sierra slept over anyways. We just watched movies and fun.
Then sunday till wednesday I laid in bed and felt like shit. My grandma came on wednesday evening.
Thursday Amanda and I went on a walk/snowball fight. And then Liz came over and we watched horror movies all night. :D
And today I've just been trying to catch up on homework.
So my spring break was half wasted... :/ But oh well! I'm feeling much better.
Oh also. I told Cricles. I told him how I used to feel.

So uh yeah.
I feel odd.
Empty.
Like all my efforts are fucking worthless.
But.
I already knew that.
Why should they be of any worth?
I don't know anything about anything.
I know nothing.
But I feel like so what?
So what?
I just don't care.
I don't fucking care.
Why should I?
I can't make any kind of change with my morals.
My morals are who I am.
They never really change, perhaps bend a little, but mostly just become more detailed so to speak.

I dunno what I'm saying now.

Hmmm...
So I dunno.

Don't know anything.
Don't know what's gonna happen.
Don't know what I want.
Don't know what's possible.
Don't know what's reasonable.
Don't know what I have.
Don't know what I think.
Don't know how I feel.

I just don't fucking know.

I don't know what I can trust.

I don't know..

So.

Goodbye.
Spread the smiles.