Abandonment.

That always how I will see it.
Always deep down I will feel abandoned.
It is the explanation for everything.
And I will place many things before it, and claim they are to blame.
But I am this being because I was betrayed and abandoned.

I'll say it's my fault. For any logical reason.
I'll say I'm just sensitive. And I am...
But those moments effected me.
They infected me.
And forever I had been changed.

Gone were the fairy tales. Gone was the happiness.
What ever have you done to me?
And yet I still blame me.