Run and crawl.

Perfect.
Perfect.
That is what you need to be.
That is what you here.
You have to be perfect.
Anything less is failure.

That's what I tell myself.
Not necessarily on purpose. But I have this image that I have to be, I have to achieve it otherwise I fail. And everything I do, must be just as perfect otherwise I fail.
Just how it is in my mind...

Ah... So. Finally this stressful is coming to an end.
Hopefully my grades don't die completely.
Hopefully my parents don't see my midterms...
Well actually my grades are fine. But I have an F. The rest are A's. And the F is for some unknown reason. I think my teacher just hates me...

I just feel like I'll always be up against something a thousand times better, in every way. Even if it's not true, that just how I feel...

The world disgusts me. High school is disgusting.
I hate being so little.
Everything I say can just be dismissed. I'm only 15. Hell, I don't know anything!
It's so irritating.

Meh. I jut wish I was done with high school and college and could be out living somewhere.

This book in english we're reading, Crime and Punishment, well we're done with it now. But yeah. I really don't like it. But it's interesting. And there are a few quotes that I just think are so perfect. They describe me or I agree completely with them. Haha. It's kinda said though. Cuz the main guy is insane, and he is a bit like me. Haha.

Good afternoon!
Spread the smiles.
I wish I could love you and you could love me.