Farther from the moon we go.

So it was another rainy day.
And I was a little bored and really tired because I'd finished my book and didn't sleep well and yeah.
So I added some pointless games and things to my blog! Because I'm a loser like that. :) Haha... Enjoy!

So I was thinking today about friendships and whatnot.
I like them better when they are full of tension. Well I don't like them better, I actually hate them a lot. But once the tension is resolved, I miss it...
So... :/ yeah...

Ah. I want sugar. Sounds delicious.
Not plain sugar... Just something with it in it. Yum...
Haha. I'm such a fatass.

Tomorrow I am going to Budapest and I don't come back till the 5th! I'm quite very excited. And we may go to Prauge for a night... :D
Haha I am also a spoiled brat.

Ah. Goodnight.
Spread the smiles.

Long winding roads, into deep dark forests.

Today I have been thinking an enormous amount.
About totally random shit, and some relevant stuff. :) haha
Like how the cars drive here, it's weird. I think their freeways seem safer, but the city roads are much more confusing... And yeah. This is totally really interesting.... :) haha... not really.

Also I started this book last night that fills me with absolute disgust. Go Ask Alice. It's quite interesting but it makes me think of people I've met and things and it makes me sad. And it's horribly disgusting. The book isn't really disgusting just the thoughts it brings me are horrid.

Yeah!

My sketch book thing I have to do for art is making me stressed... I think I'll do it all wrong... My teacher won't like it! He'll think it's dumb. Bleh... I don't konw what to do with it... Or what I should be doing with it really. Stupid....

Ha... I miss my friends... I want them here.

I dearly want my own little cute apartment for me to decorate. That would be the most amazing thing in the world... It would be so much fun!

Today I found this old coffee bean grinder and it's absolutley adorable. It was at this second hand store that I quite like, and it was cheap so now it is in the kitchen! So tomorrow afternoon I am grinding some coffee with it and making some delicious coffee! I'm excited. It's going to be very cool. :D

Ha. Well good afternoon, morning, evening. What ever it may be. I hope you are happy, at least to some extent. :)
Spread the smiles, my friends.

patterns in the shadows.

Today was fun.
My brother and I went on a walk and walked through the forest and we found a swamp. It was nice. And we wandered all over. And I got a bunch of pictures. Then later we went on another walk because my brother wanted to swim. Which was also fun and I took more pictures.
And then my grandma came to pick us up and take us back to her apartment.
And my brother and I went on another walk, to walk the dog. :)
And just barely I finished some of my art project thing which I am beginning to like more and more... Even though I think it'll be really hard...
Good day.
This place is gorgeous. I aboslutely love it. I wish I lived here.

Ah. Goodnight. I'm tired.
Spread the smiles! :D

Want

When you want something, and you want it real bad, you try to get it,
but then you see you'll never have it, something will always be there in the way,
you won't ever have it, your efforts are useless,
but you keep trying and hoping, but in vain,
and never do you really give up, you are just left with an empty little place,
empty because you made space for it and with the small hope you leave the space free,
even though you know that really that space won't ever be rightfully filled,
and that it's just a little spot where pain and anger will make home,
but you allow it, because just in case, just in case you might get it.

Rainy day.

It's been raining all day.
Nonstop.
Stand outside for a moment and you'll be soaked.
Tomorrow will probably be like this too most of the day.

I've been inside reading and doing various homework things.
I started this project that I think will be quite impossible also.
It's for art and I really have no confidence in myself.
Haha. But I started, and maybe it won't be so hard... But still difficult.
Ha I have so much I need to do... :(
Stupid school... This is summer! Don't make us suffer yet..

I really wish I lived here.
It's like my dream place.
Anywhere in Sweden would really be okay.
I love the cute little houses and nature and the weather and the cities. Everything is so cute and pretty.
And I definitely wouldn't miss the sun.
Haha. I think it's quite perfect.

I wish I were older though.
I hate this.
But it's okay.
I can wait. Try to make the best of it while I wait.
I suppose.

Hmm. Goodbye.
Spread the smiles.

Because more of what we see is with us longer than we think.
And because we can't seem to make sense of these messes they always lay before us.
And it's like we've forgotten that we can turn around and go back or around.
Though we've forgotten that we have to go back to the messes to clean them up, and that they are usually easier to get sooner rather than later.

And we find that we don't sink afterall.

I miss my phone.
I am WAY to attached to it.
Well it's here. And on even. I miss texting I should say.

Today I bought these little bottles. Because they are really cute. And really cheap. And I'm just wierd.
:D
I also went to Borås. And just wandered around a little bit.
The weather is perfect. Though my brother thinks it's to cold. I am in heaven though.
And in the evening we went to my step grandpa's house in the country and my brother and I went exploring in the forest. :D
Then we came back to my grandma's apartment and watched a movie. :)

I miss people. They should come with. That would be cool...
Instead of my brother... Who is quite annoying.

I have so much stuff to do for school... Which kinda sucks. Because well... yeah. :)

Ah. Well I'm going to stop saying random things that don't matter.
I love you!
Goodbye.
Spread the smiles!