Wohoo.....

I dunno when I last posted but I think it's been awhile...
Ha so.... I have a few dreams that I'll get around to posting on http://mysubconsciencestories.blog.com/ so... that'll be fun I guess.
Haha
For halloween I was purple. Well... the second night I was black. hahaha no in a racist way. :D
Grades should come soon... They're okay I guess. Haha.
They are, but not in my group of friends. And not when I only have 5 classes.

Hmm...
I'm sooooooooooooooooooooo jealous. It's terrible.

Haha. I don't really know what more to say.
Just keep rolling along I guess?
So adios!
Spread the smiles. :)

Stupid.

This stupid goddamn world....
Why is it that we can't just live?
Why do we need extra things to make it worth living?
Why isn't it just live, and let it be?
Goddamn.
It's fucking childish. But it bothers me. It bothers me so much...
You're one of them.... And now so am I...
I don't want to be them, because I hate them.
Those goddamn weak, stupid, idiots.
Why must you be a part of them?
I love you. I hate them. You are them. You want to be them...
I can't hate you... Oh... Stupid world.

I love you.
Smile. :)
Melt us away...

Leave me, let me bleed.

Let me ache and pain.
Bleed, bleed, bleed.
Let the sufferings end.

I hate being a teen.
I hate a child.
I hate this.

I feel horrible.
For many little reasons.

I want to be done with this stupid shit.
Why do I never stand up for what I think?
Why can't I say "I'm right, and go the fuck away"?
Why can't I feel justified in being mad at you?
Why can't I just tell you what's wrong? What's bothering me?

Am I just a coward?
Or is it because I'll always just tell myself I'm wrong?
Why don't I just shut the fuck up? You're goddamn opinion is not fucking wanted! Get out of me head.
I just want to scream. What is this horrid monster in my mind? What is this horrid disease?

Ah.... Well I'm going. Ha.
Goodnight.

I can't maintain the things I need.
I am my worst enemy.
Won't someone take me away from myself?
Won't someone save me?
Will someone please scare away all the monsters?
I'm still just a child. Won't someone hold my hand?

Life is way too stressful.
I'm losing my mind.
I just want to sleep for a couple thousand years.

Why am I not enough for you?

For Att Du Finns

Lyrics meaning: (As best I can at least...)
Tracks in the sand,
A wind that caresses,
I'm so lucky to have found,
It's like everything I've dreamed.
So come closer to me.
Let me warm you.

Because you are.
Because you can.
You lead the waves to the land.
You (something) to the world.
Because you see.
Because you understand.
You light the sky where I go.
You take my hand and lead the way.

When you stand in front of me,
Everything is as it should be.
So come closer to me.

Because you are.
Because you can.
You lead the waves to the land.
You (something) to the world.
Because you see.
Because you understand.
You light the sky where I go.
You take my hand and lead the way.

Because you love today.
Because you are in love with me.

Because you are.
Because you can.
You lead the waves to the land.
You (something) to the world.
Because you see.
Because you understand.
You light the sky where I go.
You take my hand and lead the way.

Because you love today.
Because you are in love with me.
With me.


Yepp! Pretty much. :D